The worst part about growing up

The very worst part about growing up for me. Is the anxiousness. I know im destined for Greatness i feel it in my blood every second of every day. The only problem is when
WHEN WILL I ACCOMPLISH THIS GREATNESS!? I feel like i am honestly a step away everywhere i go. Just a split second later from now or the next moment THERE I'll BE ON TOP OF THE WORLD! Its exactly why i ditch the negativity in life, i know im better than it and im destined for SO MUCH MORE.
Life just hurry up and get me there this college thing is really kind nerve racking.

Eat, Sleep, Repeat

Its funny how things come into your life when you need them most. You can completely neglect something and find it a waste until one day when it just fits. Just like that missing puzzle piece you find underneath the couch from that Saturday of boredom months ago.
I can't help but feel like sometimes a person has no idea how they truly feel until something clicks. Just like how you don't know how much you loved someone until they walk out. Or how much you would of changed if you knew that this would happen. I feel like sometimes i wear a mask so much i don't even know i am wearing it. This happens until i discover something and my mask falls off and is lost. I am not one to cover up my emotions, because as my dad would say holding resentments only hurts yourself. But sometimes I want to live like my worlds fucking awesome extreme gnar gnar!!!!! In respect to other lives all around the world I have it great, and i am well aware of it. So when I tell myself to stop being a bitch about whatever it is and forget about, I tuck it inside somewhere deep. So when these songs christened my ears i couldn't help but realize my true emotions on my life at the current time. Which to be honest was pure loneliness. At this time i had very few friends because all the ones i was used to being around were too busy smoking weed. It wasn't even the fact that i was against being around it, cause i wasn't. I didn't really enjoy it but i dealt with it because i would have a good fucking time even around a bunch of mindless stoners. I grew from this album though it through me in a state where i realized that I can only grow from here so I did. So like the album says "KEEP YOUR HEAD UP AND DON'T GIVE UP LIKE ALL THE FOOLS WHO PLAY IT SMART, LOSE YOUR HEAD JUST FOR YOUR HEART" In the end i hate routine and this was what my life felt like and this what this album spoke.

When Broken Is Easily Fixed

From the ages of 13 to 14 a lot of bad was in my house. My parents fought all the time, mainly my mom just going berserk on my Dad for no reason. I think it was her way of feeling less guilty for ruining the family little by little. No kid can enjoy a divorce. You're parents are your safe house that relationship they have is the biggest influence on your day to day actions. You know that whatever you do you have the safety and happiness of your Mom and Dad. When that is gone you have no fucking clue what to do.
I would just lay in my room and listen,over and over and over the same fucking songs. These songs were what made me cope. That and Pokemon haha you have to love Pokemon. But these songs let me vent, I don't know what it was but i felt relieved after thrashing around my room singing/whining these songs. These songs subconsciously replaced just a part of what my parents had destroyed. I finally felt just a bit safe, i felt i didn't have to lash out and drink or do anything radical like most kids. I felt like these songs were my friend and were rubbing my back telling me everything will be fine.

fuck this fuck this fuck this!!!!!!!

How come every time something is given a chance life tears it down. How come we are so fucking selfish. How come we suck so much at saving this fucking planet from destruction.
WE DONT DO SHIT!
EVERYTHING WE FUCKING DO IS PRETTY MUCH WORTHLESS
so fuck the human race if we all die at least the world could start over and let some other species plauge this fucked place

SO ZOMBIES!

I dont mean to bost or brag in any sense but theres only one way to say this!
I'm kind of really extremely good at being a zombie! I'll put a video up one of these days probably later today since all i'm doing is working on my pre exam for CHEMISTGAY. So just wait for that! Besides all of that zomzilla news I've been learning a shit load about animals lately. FOR INSTANCE!!!!!
Owls have silencers on their wings that no other bird has!


Those fuzzy like barbs on their wings makes their flap absolutely silent when flapping through the wind!!
Also birds don't have bladders!
I also learned that Pit Vipers such as Rattlesnakes are called pit vipers because of the little pits on their faces that have infrared sensory!
CUUURAZZY!!!!

this is good!

LONG TIME!

Haven't bligged in a while!!!
BLOOG BLOOG!!!
SCHOOL IS KIND OF OVERWHELMING!!!!!!
but The new Silverstein is fucking awesome!!!
THIS ALBUM WILL BLOW YOUR MIND!!!!
I saw them back on the 24th of MARCH I can't believe its april
and its like zooming so fucking fast!!
ITS REALLY UNCOMFERTABLE!!!!
SINCE SO MUCH IS GOING TO CHANGE NEXT YEAR!!!!!!!!!
BUT WHATEVS!!! IT WILL BE AWESOME!!!!!!!

I

This piece of shit also known as our interior secretary decided to follow through with the idiotic Bush administration's plan to de-list wolves!
If you didn't know last spring they were delisted and hunted and it was a bunch of FUCKING BULLSHIT!!
They were put back on the list because it makes no fucking sense for them to be off of it when there are only 1500 wolves in the northern Rockies. So what does this douche "Ken Salazar" do he decides he wants to take them off again because there are so many fucking reasons to
NO he is an idiot!
1. The amount of ranching throughout the northern Rockies that are in areas that wolves could be is very little. Yet the entire fucking state of IDAHO believes that there cow is going to be killed.
Well even if it does woopy fucking do
2. YOU CAN CALL THE DEFENDERS OF WILDLIFE AND THEY WILL REIMBURSE YOUR STUPID ASS COW AND LIVESTOCK EXPENSES BITCH!!!!!
3. We need more wolves throughout the Rocky Fucking Mountains we only have one fucking wolf in Colorado if this shit passes we won't have any Estes Park being the "elk lovers" they are wont have wolves in Rocky Mountain State park because we enjoy the elk coming through our yards eating our gardens attacking our cars and kids and we are so in touch with nature, SUCK MY BALLS!
4. If we had wolves in Estes Park a 5 million dollar plan total! we wouldn't have to spend the 6 million tax dollars coming out of mine and your pay checks on getting people to shoot the elk every 10 years, on top of that the disease and famine of those stupid elk is just going to grow more and more SO GOD DAMMIT FUCK THIS PIECE OF SHIT GOVERNMENT AND THEIR MISINFORMED MINDS TOWARDS ANIMALS

DEAR LORD

as in I have something to share. Many people know I love Silverstein with a passion. Yet i really don't think anyone understands. This band can make me feel infinite, invincible and just endless. I can be living a shit day, and for some reason they just take it all away from me, put me in such a good spot where I feel whole again, I feel of worth I feel important, I feel like my possibilities are endless and the weight of the fucking world isn't on my back. The classes, the work, the studying , and all of the FUCKING SHIT IN MY DAY IS ACCEPTED AND I LEARN TO LIVE AGAIN!!!
I get so damn depressed sometimes, but if i listen to just one song I feel so righteous.
If you have a band like that let me know and we can talk.
I just want the world to know what this band is to me.
What this band does for me.